[Loss of] FREEDOM

Back to school. Timetabled life started again. Think I am allergic to school. Feel ill when I step through the door. I don't think I am meant to work. I hate being oppressed. I just want to be free to whatever I want...wait, isn't that a song? It was my birthday today too, so think my feelings of depression had something to do with that too. First day of working on my birthday and I hated every second of it.

[Getting] OLDER

Tomorrow is my birthday. Today has been spent getting depression about being 26 in less than 24 hours. Today, I've been thinking about how old I am getting and how scared it is making me. I always thought that if I was where I wanted i.e. in a happy relationship, on my chosen career path etc (which I am), that I wouldn't care less but I was wrong. I have been harking back to the days where I didn't care about those who judge me, where I was going or what I could expect, which is why I have chosen this image. I think it shows a happy-go-lucky Mel at her best. The reason I am laughing so much in this picture (as my mum always takes great pleasure in telling me) is because the man taking the picture had been spending ages trying to get me to smile, to no avail. He then tripped over the a cord, hurting himself quite badly, to which I pissed myself.

Definitely me at my best!

Tidy

Tidied the entire house today. Took all day. Very tiring.

House looks lovely. I don't.

Where's the wine?

BIKE

I got a bike for Christmas and we spent today putting it together. I haven't been on a bike since...hmm...I can't actually remember when but I only live half an hour fromwhere I work and it sometimes take over an hour for me to get to and from work. Also, I desperately need to get fit, I put on 5lbs since Christmas day which I think is both disgusting and amazing!

I can't believe the bike was in bits, luckily my fella was on hand to help me put it together as I think if it was just me, I would sit on it and it would fall apart.