[Loss of] FREEDOM

Back to school. Timetabled life started again. Think I am allergic to school. Feel ill when I step through the door. I don't think I am meant to work. I hate being oppressed. I just want to be free to whatever I want...wait, isn't that a song? It was my birthday today too, so think my feelings of depression had something to do with that too. First day of working on my birthday and I hated every second of it.

[Getting] OLDER

Tomorrow is my birthday. Today has been spent getting depression about being 26 in less than 24 hours. Today, I've been thinking about how old I am getting and how scared it is making me. I always thought that if I was where I wanted i.e. in a happy relationship, on my chosen career path etc (which I am), that I wouldn't care less but I was wrong. I have been harking back to the days where I didn't care about those who judge me, where I was going or what I could expect, which is why I have chosen this image. I think it shows a happy-go-lucky Mel at her best. The reason I am laughing so much in this picture (as my mum always takes great pleasure in telling me) is because the man taking the picture had been spending ages trying to get me to smile, to no avail. He then tripped over the a cord, hurting himself quite badly, to which I pissed myself.

Definitely me at my best!

Tidy

Tidied the entire house today. Took all day. Very tiring.

House looks lovely. I don't.

Where's the wine?

BIKE

I got a bike for Christmas and we spent today putting it together. I haven't been on a bike since...hmm...I can't actually remember when but I only live half an hour fromwhere I work and it sometimes take over an hour for me to get to and from work. Also, I desperately need to get fit, I put on 5lbs since Christmas day which I think is both disgusting and amazing!

I can't believe the bike was in bits, luckily my fella was on hand to help me put it together as I think if it was just me, I would sit on it and it would fall apart.

[New] BEGINNINGS

I have big hopes for this year. I have made resolutions.

Last year was really hard for me...but I don't want to look back.

This year for me is about being positive and looking forward.

Here's to 2010. Happy New Year!

[More] GAMES

More game playing today. This time of a more intellectuall kind. We were playing with a chess board that I bought him for Peru a year and a half ago. I've never played chess before but I don't think I lost too badly! My head hurt afterwards though.

Shopping!!

Today was my mum and my annual shopping trip. It's my birthday next Monday so I always get money for Christmas and my birthday for the shopping trip where mum and I go to Oxford Street. I love it because it's a nice girly day for us and we always have a lovely chat while we are storming through the shop. This year, it was pissing down all day, which made it slightly uncomfortable to get round the streets. Also, I seem to forget every year how crazy sales shoppers are. Got shoved quite a few times and my mum ended up calling one woman a 'bitch'. What happens to women when they see clothes? It was madness, I tells ya!